Ticket for my destination

Okay, so earlier I was walking along the beach here at university (Aberystwyth, for those who don't know), and Homeward Bound by Simon and Garfunkel game on my ipod shuffle.

Normally this is a total expected event, I have a lot of their albums at my disposal as I'm quite the fan. But today it completely caught me off guard.
I just started to cry.

I don't even know now if I was crying at the thought of finally touching home ground after 2 years of being away at University... or the thought of actually having to leave this perfect town.

Whatever the reason, I know what is really bothering me.
I'm sick of living two lives. Or two halves of a life.
There are some people at home who I seriously care about... care more about than I'd like to admit most days.
But, I've grown seriously close to the people here in Aber too now.

I don't want to leave them, I don't want to abandon those at home.

How am I meant to cope without seeing these people every day?
How did I cope leaving home in the first place?

Some of my friends will never return to Aber after they leave this summer, it's their turn to move on.
How will I ever come back here knowing I have to continue living this half life without them around.

I will spend my whole life missing them, just like I've spent my whole life in Aberystwyth missing home.

A week on Sunday... RM6, I'm coming back.

Long time no blogg..

Firstly,
Let me make my apologies for the serious lack of blogging in about a year now. I forgot my email password so couldn't access the account. Those of you reading this who actually know me will know this is totally feasible. It's been hard as I've had tonnes of my mind and nowhere to vent it all!

Now, for the actual blogg.

Being this clever isn't as great as they always said it is.
There, I've said it.

This isn't an arrogant blogg by the way, I know I'm more clever than the average person and that's just that, ain't got time for modesty.

But seriously. It isn't great.

Okay yeah, I never failed anything in school and always got good grades and good opportunities, so that's the main point that everyone always says that they wish they were smarter because ...

But the real agony of being this clever? (Astrophysics-Masters-Degree-kind-of-clever)
Look, I can't even watch a movie without thinking 'This is scientifically wrong on so many levels'. Even those movies that sound proper smart and include tonnes of physics like The Avengers. I'm sitting there thinking, 'now.. quantum tunneling.. let's just think about that..'

There's a reason why most Physicists and Mathematicians either died young or with mental institution history.

Not to even start on the expectation everyone has of you.

For once I'd actually like to reply with,
'No, I honestly don't know how that works, please pass the Play-doh'