Okay, so earlier I was walking along the beach here at university (Aberystwyth, for those who don't know), and Homeward Bound by Simon and Garfunkel game on my ipod shuffle.
Normally this is a total expected event, I have a lot of their albums at my disposal as I'm quite the fan. But today it completely caught me off guard.
I just started to cry.
I don't even know now if I was crying at the thought of finally touching home ground after 2 years of being away at University... or the thought of actually having to leave this perfect town.
Whatever the reason, I know what is really bothering me.
I'm sick of living two lives. Or two halves of a life.
There are some people at home who I seriously care about... care more about than I'd like to admit most days.
But, I've grown seriously close to the people here in Aber too now.
I don't want to leave them, I don't want to abandon those at home.
How am I meant to cope without seeing these people every day?
How did I cope leaving home in the first place?
Some of my friends will never return to Aber after they leave this summer, it's their turn to move on.
How will I ever come back here knowing I have to continue living this half life without them around.
I will spend my whole life missing them, just like I've spent my whole life in Aberystwyth missing home.
A week on Sunday... RM6, I'm coming back.
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